a year without rain

 a year without rain felt so heavy and unwanted. 

i cannot even express how I felt for the past three hundred sixty five days. the scar was and still is too deep to feel anything again. 

losing a half of my life purpose is very unbearable. i'd say i'm the most fearless this year because i changed. though i'm not even sure if the change was for better or for worse. 

yes, i still did the same mistakes, it was like a movie on repeat, but i knew the glitch parts very well so i could fix it anytime i wanted. and i'm still fixing it now. 

not much i could say for a year without rain. it's so depressing with the cover of bright yellow lemonade. people would misunderstood it for the bright colour but the inside.. it was totally sour. 

so i'm collecting my pieces again with the thoughts of i should've been more grateful and i made a promise to him.

it was not easy, holy sh*t it's really not. but here i am. 

i hope the next one, it will be a pouring rain of happiness. 

faithfully,