i'm doomed all over again.

funny how i try to shut my mind by staying restless. isn't it a joke that i try to calm my blazing heart.

this is the thousandth times i whispered to my heart.

it's not going on forever, just behave

act accordingly, don't be ridiculous

as ridiculous as it is, it never stops. crackling like a tickled child.  all roses and jumpy when eyes to eyes.

the end is unclear no matter how hard

i slap my own sense no matter how hard

i try to break my own heart into pieces no matter how hard

it's glued all over again.

is this how it's supposed to be? what's the odd?

nothing comes great out of it. been here before, never want to be part of it again. 

if the end stays the same.